Sleeping Beauty

I wish I could sleep right now. My mind is racing, and won't slow down for anything.

Tonight was the last high school musical for me, and for a lot of us. It was sad watching it from the audience and not performing. That was somewhat my choice though. And the fact that I must work in order to live, but that's another story. I miss performing. Being on stage. The week of the show jitters. The first night worries. The last night joys. Being around all the drama kids. The drama geeks. The kids that have greatly impacted my life. Some of my closest friends.

Tonight was bittersweet. More of that is to come I suppose. There are NINE school days until graduation. 9 days. Thirteen years of schooling leading up to this one day. Crazy. Then college. I know I want to perform on the stage in college, but is that too far fetched? You might think it's corny, but theatre is one of my passions. I cannot leave it at the high school. Maybe I'll have to. I just don't know.

I think that is one of the most scary things about life. Not knowing. It is all in God's hands though. I feel like I am trying to follow His path for me with a blindfold on. I just don't know what is next. but no one really does. BUT, I know whatever it is, it's for His honor and glory. Always. That's my goal. And that, is the greatest comfort of all right now.

Embrace it.

Hopefully I will have an easier time getting to sleep now that my thoughts are out there. 

(Brain, turn off.. Please!)

P.S. Comment!

"Comfort the disturbed, disturb the comfortable."

The title of this blog is officially my quote for the day. I think it speaks truths in so many different ways.  

Ready for this ADD moment.....

My youth pastor rocks. JJ is amazing. You should really check his blog.

Ok, ADD done. ( I didn't type that line up there ^^^ JJ did!)

Anyways. Today was a much better day than yesterday. I think it took until 10:30 to realize this, but it's all good. Right now I cannot WAIT to go to Philly. I know what you're thinking, this Kaydee chick doesn't know what she wants in life. I've got news for you: A ton can change in 24 hours. =] 

Today was quite a hectic day. After waking up late and starting a new nine weeks, our advanced theatre class HAD to kick it into high gear for our show tomorrow night. We are doing "A Night of One Acts" that is completely student directed. It goes on tomorrow night at OHS Theatre for 5$, so be there!!!! Luckily for Alyson and I, we are the directors. AH! In the end though, I am sure it will pay off. During the middle of second period today, Alyson realized we forgot the table we are using for one of the acts at the church. Dude, not cool man. I headed over there to pick it up in my nicely sized Rav4, and ended up spending a few hours there. 

Oh, how I love church. Seriously though. I was in the church messing with the trad bible up in the front and turned it to a different page, wondering if anyone would notice. I decided to read whatever my eyes randomly decided to look at. I know it is in Psalm, but that's as far as my memory serves me. After reading the first couple of verses, I knew God was giving me a swift kick in the butt! I don't know how else to describe it. It helped open my eyes to see things differently. The bigger picture. I know what the bigger picture is, it is always in the back of my mind, but I also know it can slowly fade away. I am glad God has placed people in my life that can help re-direct me on the right path, in the right direction. I am so thankful for moments like these. 

I know this post is really random. Hopefully after more of this addicting blogging, I will be able to focus on one idea for longer than a paragraph! =]

P.S. Please keep Project Philly in your thoughts and prayers. We are leaving in 30ish hours. I guess I have to pack tomorrow! Comment!